trust?

hmm.. had a worse saturday night i could say.. botherin wif things which are settled openly.. but.. deep inside.. nah..

saturday was like sleepin the whole afternoon.. after opening door for b.. slp till noon.. wake up le.. was kindof tryin to study.. but the lecture notes seems not to be goin inside my head.. den later b went to work at ten plus.. and he was obviously veri late.. as he need to reached there by ten..

so went to meet jia yao to study.. as he workin at paragon tt night.. met him at 11.. and went to tcc.. but end up.. din realli study.. was like.. throwin him my problems.. haha.. so after tcc closed, walk up to dhoby gaught. saw zR!! and accompanied her to buy tix.. went to mac to catch up..

went to clarke quay at 3am. a nice time ya.. drinking lit.. terrible night.. having so much thoughts running through my mine.. maybe till now.. well.. met her at 6+ am.. met him later.. went home...

slp at 8+.. till afternoon wake up.. die also mux study.. haix..

din realli knoe how to do this two paper.. damn slack.. three more papers to go! haix..

sometimes.. u realli makes me wonder if u do love me.. i dont knoe.. i dun dare to ask.. or maybe i dont dare to knoe.. though u are wif me.. but is ur feelings here together too? bah..
i chose to forgive and hopefully forget.. its so difficult.. but i hope everything is worth it.. baby.. dont tell me u love me if u dont.. if u dont love me just let me go.. dont say forever if it wont happen.. dun promise me if u cant do it. all i wan is the truth from u.. and tts it..

happened to read ur bullentin.. 22may.. hmmm.. wonderin hu is tt u misses and love so much.. though is definately not me.. so like wad u admit.. u dont love me at all till the day u realli told me ur heart out.. realli hope wad u say tt night is true.. -25/05/2006-

can someone jux fuckin kill me? nah..

disappointment.. exams..

thursday.. went to sch.. had pmm presentation.. not realli tt good... after pmm.. went to tabao chicken rice to klass.. and eat.. and had alvin to do the tarot cards thing.. nth good aniway.. after tt.. is was cp ma.. and the lecturer let us all go home.. haha.. so went to print the hardcopy of the ppt slides..

klass was dismiss around 2+.. called him.. and he does'nt want to meet me.. well.. went home.. waited for zr to reach tpy.. went to mac.. find her.. tok.. study? nah.. -.-" which was our initial plan.. but i not in the mood to do so.. saw grandma bringing my brother to mac.. duhx.. so buy i help to buy food for him.. den grandma and bro went home.. while i accompany zr to the train station..

read three blogs.. a long ones.. knoe mani things.. well.. but it doesnt seems to be so simple isnt it.. aniway.. ten plus bb called.. say he off work le.. so went down to find him.. he knews theres something wrong.. but i din have the courage to say first.. so walk silently on the road.. i want to have some bite.. hungry.. so went to the foodcourt.. saw his ex gf there.. well.. he saw it too.. but he jux kept quiet.. so while walkin home, i finalli said it out..

had a long tok.. drink.. tok wif one of my fren.. nah.. a casual fren.. jux so nice he called me.. so.. chat till i fall asleep..

next morning.. i knoes smth.. smth which makes me disapointed... yes.. jux this one word..

i chose to stay.. i chose to forgive.. but for her.. i dunno how to face it..

and she knews i know it all.. well..

went down to tpy, den to somerset meet helen, take thing, den to tp, find cat, and back to orchard.. meet b.. had dinner.. went home.. and he went to work at ten plus..

hopefulli everything turns out to be fine.. promise me.. never will it happen again..

another two days gone.. haha. -.-" aniway..

think monday.. went home slack.. den go PS.. at ps.. waited for bb frm sentosa go dhoby gaught.. takes him one an a half hr! haha.. -.-" waited.. shop a little.. brought a top.. on the phone for one hr plus wif weihao and eunice. den he finalli come.. so damn hungry.. and finalli.. 9+.. i can had my dinner.. lolx..

tuesday... mornind bb send me to skool.. den he waited for mr till lunch break.. two hr.. haha.. den later went to find him.. go lab do proj.. den eat.. and he go off le.. =D after klass.. went to meet eunice and bb at bugis.. and he gone MIA!

den went to walk around.. go play pool.. etc..

today.. wed.. wake up le.. eat breakfast at somerset wif eunice and bb.. den went to skool.. reached skool at 930.. first lecture 8-10 leh.. so never went in loh.. saw daniel at FC1.. so went to mac there.. wait for helen.. den go klass.. sian.. after skool skip gems.. haha.. many reasons.. so take a train down to bugis.. and bb go mia lor.. haha.. waited for him awhile.. den take train to eunice house play mahjong.. while waitin for johnny to reach we play 3 pple de lor.. sian. den he and his fren finally come le.. won ten bucks! play till 9+ and go eat.. den take cab back.. goin to chiong the pmm.. die..

results of not goin to skool often.. haix..

exams comin! damn..

so borin.. now was at skool comp lab.. haha.. waitin for the next lesson.. and so long never update le.. so comin back bah.. last two week was vesak dat.. so had quite a long holiday for me.. haha..

was workin on thurs, fri and sat.. thurs after work fri morning went to temple wif eunice and wei hao. den fri after work was sat morning went to xl chalet.. play one round mahjong.. jiu take cab home to slp le.. to eunice house.. sat night as usual went to work..

monday. remember i went to meet eunice at bugis.. slack and do nth there.. 8+.. went to chel de house.. slack and drink there.. the stupid baileys plus cranberry juice suck.. cox is like tofu.. haha.. den never get a good slp.. jet lag again..tuesday they send me to skool.. eat mac at SP.. den jiu went to klass.. and they went off... afternoon time.. too tired.. skip afternoon lesson and went home to slp.. haha..

so for wed.. go skool.. skip gems.. went to the car repair center and it takes my whole afternoon.. duhx.. den went home..

as usual thursday and friday go skool.. borin.. haha..

fri afterskool wanted to go back mjr for pop one.. but was too tired.. so din went in the end.. went home to slp.. and fri, sat went to work.. haha..

monday.. today.. first day come skool.. reached at 9.. make up lesson at 8.. accounting! damn.. and dunno wad it is tokin.. the klassroom so small.. not enugh chair.. -.-"

aniway... its 1.27 le.. haha.. my another lesson is at one thirty.. so goin off le! haha...

it takes a lifetime to build a friendship but a minute to lose one.. never ever fall in love with someone hu is ur bestfren.. haha.. hmm.. i dont have u to make me feel guilty.. i dont need it.. wad official bye is that.. ha.. for me.. i feel kindof childish to say this thing.. yes.. and i will take it as a lesson also.. never ever go wif someone who is ur best buds.. from the past, i think that promises can onli be broken between a couple.. for now.. i realised.. it is not.. even friends lie to u.. get lost..

den meet gaode.. go clarke quay.. den order two jug.. beer sux.. haha.. den later yeow come.. den later eunice den come.. they din drink.. i still help him drink some of the shirly temple! -.- haha.. den later 7+.. cab to marina square.. go ktv.. sing till around 10.. den go eat.. eat le.. jiu go home le.. haha

hai.. sian.. so pple.. dun need to bother to continue to read le.. cox it will be sleepi and borin.. unless u got nth to do.. and cant get to slp.. mayb it will help.. ha.. -.-

aniway.. fri.. sian.. cab to clarke quay.. halfway.. eunice call.. say sarena the accountant will be goin to lunch.. and will not be able to giv out pay.. so.. wadeva.. immediately ask the uncle drop me at orchard.. get down.. take train home. slp.. at night went to meet eunice. take pay.. go eat.. den go work..

sat.. morning she come my house.. den got mother day celebration.. after tt.. went to bugis.. shop around.. den go to work.. chiong cab go sia.. reason: late.. heng reached there still on time.. damn..

after work went to her house.. slp all till 2+.. den alex come.. den yc come.. den i wake up lor.. why leh.. MAHJONG la! -.-
yeah! i won!! haha.. around 17bucks.. ya.. after tt.. went to eat.. den jiu go home le.. around 10++? i think..

next day.. dunno wad happen to my sleepin time.. not right leh.. cannot wake up at morning.. wierd.. aniway.. skip morning lesson.. go bread talk buy one bread one orange juice.. den cab to skool.. den havin lessons till 5.. went to orchard..

meet eunice at there.. went to metro buy two top.. ask the manager lydia help me buy.. haha.. staff purchase.. buy le.. go B1 buy smth to eat. a pancake frm jollibean.. my second "meal" and soy bean.. after tt.. hs come le.. we jiu went to balcony loh.. ordered one jap traffic light.. magarita.. followed by two tequila shots.. den he order one bucket heinken.. den eunice order magarita also.. den drink abit of heinken while play 5-10.. -.-"

seat at the taller chair.. dunno wad i thinking also.. called a few person.. a few person called me.. ya.. tokin rubbish.. later i seE her suddenli vomit.. i jump up.. den he help her down loh.. den holdin on to two bag.. seat downstair awhile.. den take cab to bedok 85.. around 10+?hmmm

eat.. his unhappi.. and angry.. walk away.. reply wif wierd sms.. find him.. cannot find.. call... hp not on.. so.. no choice.. go to ps.. report.. hai.. den in the end nth le.. found him.. walk back.. to playground.. the two man come.. questioned him.. ask us brin him back to there.. den walk back again.. seat there wait loh.. lucki never tio charged.. haix.. den jiu go back the playground.. me and her go shell station buy thing.. come back.. his gone again.. den after a few calls.. is he reached home le.. so kindof relieve.. so jiu go eunice house slp.. slept at 4++..

did not manage to wake up go skool.. argh.. den tt stupid woman.. say go skool 1-2.. 2+ cab home.. in the end waited till 5+.. so bloody hungry.. den ask her fetch cat.. den they two finalli reach le.. go eat at 85.. finalli.. eat le.. went to her house.. wait for her.. cab to tm.. watch MI3! halfway the show stop.. -.-" tech problem.. dots.. den go buy ice cream eat.. den the thing ok le.. so went back to the cinema.. watch le.. went home.. take train..

thom come le.. so jiu went down.. after i do the ppt halfway.. go geylang eat.. meet his fren.. den on the way to jb.. suey.. at lor 12 exit.. the bike buang the bicycle.. dots.. so stayed there for quite long.. long story.. lazy say.. den jiu went to simei.. den his fren go ubi.. den we go tpy eat.. den go home..

reach home le.. went to do the ppt.. till 4+.. tong till 5+.. go lie down.. never want to slp.. but dunno why.. fall asleep.. got two morning call frm gao de.. den i still morning call my fren.. and! i dunno why.. doze off.. 1030.. auto wake up.. jump up..

not feelin realli well.. went to see a doc.. two days mc.. den went to skool for presentation.. den tell teacher i on mc.. after presenting go off loh..

tired..

hmm.. yeah.. after tt day brin diesal to walk.. went home.. slack.. could not get to slp.. slack, on the phone to around 4+.. decided to go balcony.. there got me, tiff, kay, xiao bai, leonard, azmi, doug and one more guy forget his name.. lol.. anwiay reached there le.. awhile doug jiu went off le.. den stayed there.. they opened abs vanilla ... den around 7+.. went to somerset to have breakfast.. den jiu go skool.. so tired.. den skool to 5.. immediately went home to slp...

next day.. could not wake up at 6.. so woke up at 830.. reached skool at 10.. for measurement.. and gems.. after skool.. go tpy.. eat pizza.. den go bugis meet hs and eunice.. walk around.. den 10+ go home.. on call a cab.. reached home le.. around 12+ went roundin.. to serangoon north and loyang.. den go home.. reached home.. eunice was usin my comp.. me nth to do.. so dozed off.. slept.. could not wake up next morning..

din go skool again.. haix. den slp till 3+.. slack.. go bank and its close.. go home.. slack.. went to ntuc buy thing.. now slacking at home again.. life so borin..

tml got skool at 9.. hopefulli will go... and i mux go... -.-" hmm.. realised mani thing in this few days.. even things i have not seen or wad before.. or maybe is i myself think too much.. ha.. i dunno..

-get lost-

martel and mahjong!

jus reached home not long.. borin.. so. hmm.. ya.. din went to work ytd... as in sunday night.. too last min.. and i was sleepin.. haha.. din realli bother. but one hr ten bucks sia! 7 hr.. and my 70 bucks gone... so wake up le.. meet up wif eunice at bugis.. wanted to take cab.. but it is so damn long que.. so took train instead.. and i was late for 20min.. haha.. so went to eat at bugis junction. chicken rice.. lolx..

after eatin.. wanted to cab to paradiz center one.. but den no cab.. kindof "lu chi" ytd.. took sometime to figure how to go.. after callin jo.. -.-" so went down to paradiz.. cabbed to tanjong pagar wif eunice and yong.. go there de dunno wher.. aniway.. quite mani pple.. me, eunice, jo, yong, bakero, tiffany etc.. dunno. lol.. den alot of places full.. so went to one.. think is reds or smth..

den they open one bottle of martel.. was kindof seh.. -.-" play 5-10 wif janeson.. and jo.. den later seE them play dice.. to around 1+ jiu go home le.. actualli went to eunice house.. merlion sia.. damn.. reached her house.. den lay straight on the bed.. haha.. was tokin on phone.. to 4+.. den later.. morning le.. dozed off.. slp till one..

wake up alreadi went to eat lunch.. nearby... den later went back.. did the CRS tutorial.. finalli.. and the deadline was three days ago.. than do another one.. pro count.. din go tutorial last week ma.. den do while waiting for hs and alex to come.. play mahjong! today so suey.. lost alot sia.. but heng he win.. haha.. so was kindof covered.. -.-" bad.. but after covered he still won.. haha.. hs and eunice la.. two winner..

after mahjong to around ten plus.. went to 85 to had dinner or supper.. den brin diesel go walk.. den jiu went home le...

so sian.. tml skool at 8.. shit.. ....

why is love so complicated.. two person in a story is never enugh.. hmmm..